Tuesday, December 16, 2014


I have something fun I'd like to share with ya'll! hopefully it will happen within the next day or two!

who can believe that Christmas is next week...PRACTICALLY AROUND THE CORNER! this time of year was always murder for me, as I'm honestly sure it was for most kids! as wrapped gifts started accumulating underneath the tree, it was pure torture having to wait until the end of the month to rip open that thin, ornate paper!

Within the past couple years my family has had some dramatic changes to how we celebrate Christmas. and especially the past 2 years, we've all sort of started waiting until Christmas Eve to set the presents under the tree. I've actually kindof enjoyed that method, it seems to add to the illusion of Christmas since I've gotten older and generally less excited about the Holidays. my biggest excitement now for the Holidays is the delicious Lamb dinner my mom makes for Christmas Eve dinner!

but anyways, have a sketch!

Thursday, December 4, 2014


so I've fallen terribly behind in my artwork posting across my sites...I am so sorry! I'm thinking something happened a couple weeks ago to make me initially fall behind by a week, I'm guessing it was probably a busy week at work, or something. or something. Then as I was trying to get ahead and preparing for an upload for the next week, I was browsing my photoshop files through Bridge, when I noticed something funny on some of my files. I couldn't open them. I've almost never had any trouble with files corrupting on any personal computer of mine. So in a panic to cross-check my files to see if the problem was somehow limited/linked to my desktop, I ran upstairs to my laptop to see if I could open them up there.

this is where it begins.

I open up my laptop, and there is an internet window open with 2 tabs, on a website that I'm not familiar with, and to make it better, I know I had not gone to myself, because I had not been on my laptop in at least a week. Upon my confusion of seeing this strange site, I also notice that there is a Notepad text document open next to the internet window. I quickly read over it, just enough to read something along the lines of your files have been encrypted and please follow the directions to reclaim your files.

I kindof mildly freak out. I rush out of my room to get my dad and see what he says. He's just as clueless as to what's going on, but he agrees that something is up and I've possibly been hacked. He advises me to just shut everything off, and he'll do research about it later.

The next day he works on my laptop and does some research online, and finds that I had been blessed with a lovely thing called decrypt install, and what it is is basically someone remotely hacked into my computer, accessed some of my files, encrypted them, and basically left a note for me saying if I wanted those files back, to follow the listed instructions and pay a ransom within a time limit to retrieve those files.

w-t-f mate.

Doing research, this is a fairly new thing that was released in early 2014, with essentially no antivirus/decrypter available to the victims. On every forum that me and my dad were reading, everyone was basically saying that the only way to effectively get rid of it was to wipe the machine, and reading online, it was reported that basically any file could be attacked. People were stressing how keeping a recent backup of a system and all of it's files should be pretty essential to any person with important files. okay, I can sort of deal with that, all that was on my laptop could be deemed as an 'acceptable' loss. However, as I thought about it, this problem was potentially discovered on my desktop, where I had tried to open a file through Bridge which just flat out wouldn't open. Could it possibly have been encrypted? Could the possibly-encrypted-file-that-I-opened-on-my-desktop-spread-to-the-rest-of-my-files?

Now let me back up and clarify for a second: the file that I had tried to open on my desktop was on a NAS Server that my desktop and laptop have access to. So I'm thinking that if the hacker got into my laptop, could he have gotten on my server? The very same server that all of our computers are connected to. Are those files in danger of being attacked? If I lose my files on my desktop...that will just crush me, and I'm pretty sure I'll give up on life and lose all faith in humanity.

So my dad is running virus scans and reading up on it, I had pretty much ceased any activity on my desktop, terrified that if I access it, I'll spread this wildfire. My dad was so awesome during all this. During the process of wiping the laptop he's scanning and cross-scanning the desktop and server, and to much of my relief, nothing bad is found on any of the other systems in the house. Everything outside of my laptop, even the stuff on the server was safe.


My dad had made a backup on a portable drive before we really knew what it was that we were dealing with. So we scan the portable, and the virus scanner is flagging all these files with this decrypt instruction extension, and upon inspection, it came to my attention that most of the files that were attacked, were actually all the install and setup files of my CS2 program files. None of my precious files were compromised. Everything that I was willing to lose on my laptop was spared from this purge, and all of my personal files were ok.

Upon this revelation, and further reading on the forums about this thing, it sounds like that this...problem is not really a 'virus'. It was someone personally going into each individual file and encrypting it. It has no capability to spread, at least on it's own volition. It has to be initialized by a user.

since then.

It's been about a week-and-a-half since I've had this problem resolved. I actually went out and bought an antivirus, not that I didn't have anything already installed before, but my dad had a lesser-alternative to a more complicated antivirus like Norton installed. But from asking around where I work, turns out I get a pretty swanky discount on awesome antivirus. But I have made backups, and images of my systems. So now I'm going to try my hardest about being as vigilant as I can about keeping recent backups.

so now.

I'm busy this weekend, but I'm hoping that starting next week I'll be back up to a regular upload schedule again, and so forth and so on. I've also discovered within the past couple weeks that my beloved scanner suddenly died. Good Night Sweet Prince, I had you for 11 years, you got me through a lot, but now it's time to say goodbye. So now I'm in the market for a new scanner! Life keeps on being interesting!

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

very blessed

Every once-in-a-while, I have this strong urge to hop on my facebook and, just like every other human out there, bitch about my problems or hint at my frustrations towards things or people without being too completely obvious. Sitting back and looking at everyone else who does just that, it becomes clear that there are two options when it comes to posting things: doing something or not doing something. A lot of what I see, and this is so common that I'm sure everyone can relate (I assure I'm no wiser than anyone else out there) is getting online and bitching. It is without a doubt a hell of a whole lot easier than taking that negativity and frustration and turning it into something positive. I get annoyed from logging onto fb and seeing all negativity, and surely, I don't need to be adding to the pool on this one.

I'm not trying to get on my soap box over here by trying to say how perfect I am by not bitching. I honestly feel I've been doing much more bitching lately than creating. But I will get on here and say that I am blessed.

I am truly blessed.

I am very blessed, to have every single little thing that I have. Even my problems. My blessing make my problems seems so small and irrelevant, especially when I sit back and really see what I've got going on.

These past couple nights, all my blessing have been so clear to me. Last week was a long and crazy one at work, and it killed me having to stay 8 1/2+ hrs every night (with the exception of Friday, woo!) when the days were so gorgeous and lovely. I had only one opportunity last week to ride my horsey. That lone opportunity, was like, such an eye-opener for me. I had gotten home late, and just as dusk was starting to set in, decided to hop on my girl for an evening ride. I can't begin to even explain how my horse has been this amazing source of therapy for me. When I'm on her I have to drop everything: all of my doubts, worries, exhaustion -- anything, you name it. When I'm on her it's just us and the open air. My mind is clear, and whatever annoyances and frustrations I had during the day, completely gone and obliterated. I don't know where I would be without her. By the time I come in for the evening, everything is so far behind me it's not even worth giving it a second more of my time. I think I would be a very paranoid and bitter person for sure.

Now lets not forget there are other awesome factors in my life besides my horsey. My friends and family...such a great support circle.

But I'm just saying, that I am truly blessed. If you were to take one piece of advice from me from this post, it would be this: get on a horse and ride.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014


Hey all,
long time no see. I'm back for another revival attempt, and a pretty ambitious attempt at that. This time I mean business though.

A little over a year ago, I had released a project, "Walking Steady on My Own Two Feet" where I had attempted to be very open with my sketchbook. Normally I am a very shy person when it comes to my sketchbooks, so this was a "coming out" sort of thing. I had intended to discard my shyness and be completely open with everything that I drew. Well, looking back on what I had "unveiled" with my project, I realize now I had so many shortcomings with the project, and only uploaded a few dozen images out of the literal 100 pages I had to share with everyone. I was concerned of showing off the best of me, and not all of me.

I can't help but be honest though, because of a rough couple of years with my art, I was honestly very afraid to show off the subject matter that often lands in my sketchbook. I haven't quite discarded a few nasty memories during such an impressionable time of my life. I was afraid of what you guys, my few friends/followers may think of me, and what you may label me after seeing what I draw behind the scenes. Going along with that train of thought, I don't want to put anything on any form of social media that someone may use to damage my reputation.

But here I am! And here's the interesting part of my revived presence online! I have crafted a gameplan! I will, once a week, post 4 pieces of artwork! I have art up and ready to go from up to 3 years ago! Well over 700 images, ranging from little doodles on scraps of paper, to sketchbook poops, tablet/digital doodles & paintings, to fully traditional artworks. All that will eventually see the light of social media! To make things even more interesting, all the sites that I maintain, this Blog, to my DeviantArt account, my Tumblr, and my Facebook, will have a different piece of art posted on them each week! I don't know if they will all get updated the same day, or if each day of the week will be committed to a different site, but we shall see how it goes! But that is the gyst of it!

Please feel free to find me on any of these sites! And please feel even more free to follow me!
Tumblr: ayafeesh.tumblr.com
DeviantArt: ayafeesh.deviantart.com
Facebook: Amanda Scharf